心酸

昨天，跟妈聊天，很久很久没有跟妈两个人聊天，平时都是通过电话，现在难的假期，不过还要实习。

妈告诉我说，“我和你爸在大哥家是没事做就想多多了，讲了很多。” 你爸还问我：

爸：如果有一天我死了，你会怎样？

妈：还能怎样？就一个人住在老家啊！

爸：你女儿，儿子会让你一个人住吗？当然不会留你一个人的。

妈：我比较习惯住这里，最多有空去他们家走走。

爸：你跟谁住都可以，我就不能。

妈：哪，如果有一天我死了，你要跟谁住？

爸：我？我回去庙过日子，去那边听佛经，人都会比较心静。

妈：他们那会给你去？一定叫你跟他们一起住。

爸：如果我要，他们是不会stop 我的。而且我不能跟他们住。

妈：为什么？

爸：我又不像你，会煮饭，会clean house.

妈：哈哈，我们两个想太远了吧。

爸：不会咯，有一天我们会分开的。我会先去，我有病。

妈：你有病，我没有病？

是你的话听了会怎样？我无话可说, 只能静静的。

p/s: 我是流着泪写的

speechless

最近真的很忙，压力也很大。

病了，看医生，还要验血，发高烧。

病了，没时间读，考到烂成绩，自己活该！

Assignment 还没做完，Project due date 就要到了。

很抱歉不能抽时间陪你，是我的错。

说真的，昨天发生的事，我真的不能接受，太突然，很辛苦，

到现在我的心还是流着泪。

谁知道？难道这叫做我不在乎你？

很想问你十万个为什么!

好心疼。

温馨

终于有时间写blog了，才发现我已经没update很久了。

上了第二学年，真的忙到！！！

功课真的很多，多到！！！

哈哈，真的分配不到自己的时间。身边的朋友都有问到，你好象很久没 update blog 了， 几时要update。

现在终于机会了，新年嘛，就有时间咯。。。哈哈

可是为什么我会把温馨作为题目呢？

其实，这几天，去了不少长辈的家拜年，也不算是拜年，是拜访吧。发现有的真的老了，开始没力了，看了有点心酸，但我可以做什么呢？一年只有一次机会去探望他们，但以后呢？还会有人去探望他们吗？有的孩子，都没回来过年，到底是他们之间发生了什么事？本人只是感到好奇，为什么年轻人不能够宽容易一点。回家过年有那么难吗？没有了自己的父母，那会有我们呢？

在家的感觉的确是不一样，吃的喝的，看的听的，都有特别的感觉。家庭的温暖。

虎年，又是新的一年，或许每个人都会有个愿望，但最重要的还是身体健康，平平安安。

很久没写了，真地想不出东西来，哈哈。

重而言之，过年客一回家就回家，即使是一天也好，父母说不介意，可是他们会很在意的。年轻的就让让他们吧。

新年快乐——2010

Can i make it?

Is not the first time, yet the last.

It had been happen quite a lot of times. Sometimes sweet, sometimes it taste bitter. I don't know why it taste so. When things goes wrong, no matter how you do, when, or what you do. Sometimes there is no second chance for you in your life. I am learning and appreciate all the things that i had at the moment, but sometimes i loose it from my own palm.

Trying so hard. But it getting worst. What else i could do? Another sleepy but can't sleep night..how long it will be continue like this..it's time for me to stop..can i make it? I'm tired of it. Like a locker keep locking, and finally it die in the locked hand..Sometimes sweet, sometimes bitter..What kind of taste is it?

I'm really tired, wish to close my eyes and the thing will gone. But the reality is still there tomorrow. I afraid of facing it. Can i make it?

When the plate is served full with tasty dishes, we

are enjoying, but when the food is off, remaining only the dirty plate. We only can kept it clean by washing it again and again. But why when a plate fall down to the floor, it will break up?

People are always not satisfied with what they had. They even want it more and more. Sometimes is a positive things, but sometimes it would not be the right thing.

Today i make the decisions, the decisions to leave.

2009

herm 2009

Well after tomorrow, we need to change the date we wrote on the name list, on the cheque, and even in calculating our ages...

2010-1988=22

Oh no! i'm going to be 22 years old next year! Am i old? hehe...matured la...

Well does it make any changes? Ya it does change a lot of things even by just changing the end digits. Do you ever think what you had done whole year?

Everyone sure had their own story, me as well. The sweet things and the worst things that happen throughout the year.

Well the most unforgettable memories...the sweet thing that happen this year was celebration for my 21st birthday. It was a surprise thing for me that i ever think of. Really thanks my dear Alice for planning it so special and all my other friends that still remember my birthday. Thanks darling Moon as well, bring me outside for celebration. Will never forget you both.

2009 is a year where i first time joining a group of people for hiking. I go to Puteri Gunung Ledang. Really an unforgettable hiking experience. Get to know more people and really fall in love with this activity.

2009 as well for me to try many nice food around Kl...really thank you(^^) for bringing me around and try the nice food.

2009 my family full with joy with the new born girl~ my niece

2009 can manage my study well a bit.

2009 i learn something new, i get to know you, i happy to be with you

so fast a year had past...

something for you

18Nov2009

A beautiful day,

A day full with surprise,

A day full with love.

I can feel something today,

Something that i never feel before,

Something that called chemistry.

The sky turn dark,

I felt afraid of loosing you,

I afraid of looking at you,

As i worried to drop my tears in front of you.

I saw the object around me,

it moving faster and faster,

I look at the watch,

it moving turn to another round,

My heart beat faster and faster,

Few more minute left for me to be with you,

The sky is crying,

Same as my feeling,

Dropping tears in the heart,

The moment i got to go,

I left something for you,

Something that you will never know.

18november2009

I will miss you.

Footsteps of us

~

The sunrise,a beautiful scene,

A new day for me to miss somebody,

I miss everything about you,

Miss your smile,

Miss your laughter,

Miss your inner soul.

~ ~

The places we be together,

Leave with our footsteps,

The star smiles,

The rain stop,

The sun shines,

When we be together.

~ ~ ~

02nov2009

11:38pm

P/s: exam week...stress...help ! help!...

The Last Dinner

A nice cucumber cooks,

Taste nice,

But for me,

I full with tears.

A word from you,

A drops of tear in my heart,

A last touch from you,

A begin for our distance.

A step of you,

A mile away from me.

~ ~ ~

01nov2009